It’s OK to be lost.

Last night, I spoke at IgniteSD about the beautiful people of Niger and the things they taught me. During the presentation, I talked about the evacuation and the uncertainty on my life. With a lump in my throat, I said that I was terrified. Well, I am.

That struck a cord with someone and she found me at intermission and asked to meet for coffee the next day. I didn’t know her nor did any of my friends, but that’s the beauty of these events — connecting.

We met at my favorite Sioux Falls coffee shop to have inspiration conversations — Michelle’s — and she told me about her search for the right path. We talked our hopes for Sioux Falls and the art of dream chasing.

“It’s OK to be lost,” she told me.

Last night, I cried from an emotion overload. My head is spinning so fast it can’t land on anything sensible, but I suppose that isn’t anything new. I want to return to my West African hiding spot yet I envy my friends with jobs and normal lives. I want to be everything and nothing at all. I want to save the world and runway at the same time.

I suppose what I need is to be lost to figure it out. It’s scary but invigorating at the same time. From my experience, being terrified often leads to something amazing.

Sorry this post doesn’t make much sense but neither does my life right now.

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2 thoughts on “It’s OK to be lost.

  1. You did a great job last night, Heather. Your passion was obvious. Thanks for the education.

    God has a plan for you and the talents he has given you. It may take some time for his plan to become clear to our simple minds, but I know for sure that confused and safe is better than content and in danger.

    You’ve proven your ability to adapt to changing conditions. That ability will come in handy over the next few weeks and the rest of your life!

  2. Eric, I am really sorry that we didn’t get a chance to chat at Ignite but thanks for coming and the lovely words of support. Life will play out the way it’s supposed to and I just need to hang on. Thanks again.

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